my my my...

i think it's been 5 months?!

heheh, im updating because paloys left me an offline message telling me to update this blog... (*weird*)

but anyway, i guess it's time narin to visit this page...

so, what's been happening? A LOT

heheh... that simple, the enthusiasm of blogging has left my life... im no longer eager to tell, express or rant and rave about everything that goes on in my life....

honestly, im going through a crisis myself.... it's going to be a new year in a few days and i dont want to be left behind. im ashamed of what i've been going through, what i've been doing... haaay...

i need someone to bang my head to a wall, just to get some sense inside this head of mine... lately, i can't help but think how much of a hypocrite i've become... there are things in life that i just can't handle... i dont know how to deal, and im just scared that i wont be able to...

haaay... this has to stop...

hahahaha!!!

how long has it been since i last updated?

grabeh, my days have been a variation of long ones and short ones. the week flies by so quickly but the days are so long. my weight has also been varying as well... hahaha.... pag TH mabigat pag MWF magaan! bwahahahaha!!!

anyway, life has been treating me quite well, im getting a hang of things... balancing service and school. the only problem is im always tired, but i like being tired especially if it's for the Lord. It's amazing how He works in different and surprising ways.. hehehe...

i miss everyone, oh a big shout out to all the B-ERS!!! i miss you all soo much... *tear*

im getting back at playing my guitar again... hehehe... Kiddo and Jeff taught me new songs the other day... cool!!! i can play Dare You to Move, Meant to Live, One Way, More to LIfe, and a lot more! *jumps around*

yesterday was swimming day! coolness... the water was cold.. brrr.... but it was funny to see the boys on their trunks! bwahahahaha!!!! it was very tiring but fun...

hahahaha.. wala na akong maisip na makwento..

see you all soon!!

oh i want to plug...

SYMPHONY OF JOY CONCERT!
October 23, 2004
7pm at the Elim Center for Renewal (51 10th st. Rolling Hills Village, New Manila, QC.)
tickets are at P200 each.

-- > im part of it so if you want to see my sing... (hindi solo ah! ) come and watch!!!
text me if you're interested..

God Bless y'all!!

this is one of my favorite songs as of the moment....

God knows why....

Consider the kindness of a stranger that passes by your way
For there are ties that bind us together, forever
Touching a broken hearted friend brings healing to the soul within
There's evidence everywhere of His love, sweet love

God is all around us
Even when we feel we're all alone
I can hear Him whispering my name
Telling me that I'm His own
God is all around us
Even when we feel all hope is gone
God is all around
God is all around

There's so many lessons yet to learn
I don't know where the road will turn
He always finds a way to guide me, remind me
That is I should fall into the night
He will be there a shinning light
For all the world to see, with open arms for you and me

God is all around us
Even when we feel we're all alone
I can hear whispering my name
Telling me that I'm His own
God is all around us
Even when we fell all hope is gone

God is all around, He'll hear your prayer
If you just reach out, He's everywhere
God is everywhere

God is all around us
Even when we feel we're all alone
I can hear Him whispering my name
Telling me that I'm His own
God is all around us
Even when we feel all hope is gone
God is all around

God is all around...

God is all around....


can you believe, i was actually teary-eyed when we sang this... haaay.... I love you Lord!

Tonight was the last time I'll be attending Alabang Revival Nights for the next 3 months. I'm going to miss Festival so much. For the was 3 weeks I've been attending not just Alabang Revival nights but also Makati and Homebase of course. It was only this evening that I mentioned to Mary Anne that I liked observing people during prayer ministry. It makes me feel so peaceful and blessed. It's only lately that I get touched when I see people getting slain by the Spirit.

Wow! The Lord made a really big catch tonight, we had 20 first-timers. Praise God! And before prayer ministry Daddy Willy always has a special intention to pray for before the rest of the dwellers. Tonight he invited those who hasn't accepted Jesus as their personal Lord and Saviour. At first nobody was going in front, then 2, 3, 5, i think until they reached more than 10! Praise God indeed! I was really touched by their boldness and their walk of faith. While they were praying, I felt the Holy Spirit come down. I felt a gush of wind blow in me from the chest to my mind. It was like He was passing by... amazing.... at first I thought He was blessing me with the gift of tongues but i realized that it wasnt after. He was just making Himself known, allowing me to absorb His presence. Thank You Lord.

We sang One Way again before the Community Song. I'm never going to be fed up of that song, though it's tiring it still has that beat to get me jumping. Nica was also jumping, to think that she was already sleepy. I'm going to miss a lot of things in Alabang. Now palang i missed Choy. Normally, during worship I'd look at my right and I'd see him there, but tonight he wasnt. I can't wait to see him this October! i want a picture with Choy...

In 45 mins, i will regain the ability to text and call using my real number(line). My mom placed a limit of 700 a month. Unfortunately for me i passed that limit halfway of the month. That's why i couldn't reply to all your messages, i have been temporarily using our prepaid to make some important texts. I'm so excited to be able to use my line again.

Anyway, I'm going now, i have to email my dad. He's leaving Calcutta, India tom.

I just finished Ate Didi's new book. "A Girl's guide to Inner Beauty" It's a great read! If you're a fast reader you can finish it in one sitting, about 2 hours...but it took me one night to. hahaha!!

anyway, i just want to share some parts of it...

"Daughters of God, who were created to be feminie, know in their hearts that the Lord's standards are the only acceptable standards of living."

... This refers to having the grace to deliberately CHOOSE not to sin.

... A vice is anything that makes our beings unclean, physically or otherwise, and hinders us from being able to offer ourselves -- in spirit, soul and body -- as consecrated individuals to God.

... Examples of vices that are recognized by the world are smoking, drinking, taking drugs, gambling, gossiping, and lewd conduct. Another is thoughts that may e malicious, lustful, envious, critical, judgemental, condemning or just plain idle. They are forms of vice that defile our sould, together with our minds and hearts.

...Girls who are not Christians may find it too much when it comes to us offering our lives to the Lord in this manner (romans 12:1-2)

... "If the world hates you, be aware that it hated me before it hated you. If you belonged to the world, the world would love you as its own. Because you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world -- therefore the world hates you." - John 15:18-19

This chapter was where i found myself almost to tears. For the past few days, I've been challenged to defend my lifestyle and my beliefs. It was hard for me because I really didn't get it either, all along I was just being obedient and faithful. Knowing that all these sacrifices would bring out something better in me. It has been hard lately having to explain to my friends why i can't attend such gatherings or why I cant do stuff anymore. It's only now that I have been enlightened. Maybe at some point, i was just too lazy to actually try to understand and ask questions. So to all those who has been wondering and are still bothered why i do these things, i hope the few points i posted above could help. If not, just let me know and I'll buy you the book.

Yun lang... God bless!